Dear Singaporeans..

 To be honest I am not supposed to write this on my nails things blog that still waiting for the XML better. Coz I am currently making this with all I know. Not a professional blog designer. Hahaha. I want it all free XD. 

Btw.. I will have my personal blog by end of October I think, I'd love to share you all what inside my mind. But give an excuse for this time hehe.. 

I have a long story!!! 

This blog belong to someone from Singapore, since my readers in most seen row from Singapore plus.. Now I am working in Singaporean boss, who talk all way like his way talking to me.. I won't forget. Btw.. I love the way Singaporeans read my blog even it's only first one who said that my blog theme will develop in 10.10!! 

I am not famous yet, but thank you so much. Mwahhh.. 

(Btw, lil bit complicated because I was with him for long time on-off, and I decided to left with deleting me Line because I know I wasn't right for him) 

So.. Long.. Long and long time ago, let's return to end 2015. I had someone with me as close friend but we had no relationship, he's a guy from Singapore I met online, he very close to me and we talked lot of things but we started as friends but after my 18 th birthday he officially told me he liked me things changed like..  He waited for me to have mature age to communicate well, please do not call him bad person. I was the one who pick him as friend. And nothing happened between us. We were just chatting friends. 

To bring the story easier, Call him Jay,  his mid-name has J in it. Strongly his name pure Chinese. Like mostly I know my bosses (she's Chinese-Singaporean) friends name more like western name in front and ended up like their Chinese surname. Example "Michelle Ang" Something like that. But his name pure written with alphabet is Chinese name, means first child. Think we have similar parents who just put names because they had no idea of what to put.. My mom named me after the translation of a pope said it's "dela pace" Lol. 

After that, we turned to be romance and getting closer (once I blocked his line for my stupid local ex I had in the past, shit.. I remember his family) 

In our world Jay is my husband and I am his wife as we texted so romantic , like trust me.. I called him husband and he also call me Wifey.. That time my phone was Samsung Galaxy and the Line apps was freaking famous. Until it's  2019 I decided to deleted Line from my phone and never use it again until now. 

This is how I messaged him 

"Husband-husband, you have dinner ah?" Also my English was limited that time, now I have better brain. Hehehe.. 

It was the thing I remember, and we went separate in 2016 because that time I had a boyfriend that I thought will be there when I feel lonely or hollow. After broke up and I came back to my Hubby where I never even met until now. Sadly, I was the one who made him feel worse. 

Also even me and Jay tried to bond the string together and had super sweet communication, I need to realize I won't be with him. 

Not because I left Jay, but us being different mindset,background and culture plus I made a huge mistake. He also away for months as I thought he will never back again. Once he back and ah.. I don't know what I was in his eyes after he returned. We've been on and off for 3 years as I remember. 

Sometimes he left, sometimes I left, back and forward.. 

I did a mistake too btw, I was under influence of someone who made my life was in wrong turn. I never tell anyone lot about this, but I was trusted her 100% she was a good person where I went to same school with her. She manipulated me to do things I shouldn't and it affect me and Jay. 

I was stupid yes. Lesson learned yes..

Last time, I knew Jay has a GF,I felt jealous. He told me I was the one he adore and he never had a GF. Also he said thing that will us officially will never be together :( 

Everytime he had call with me, he tried as long as possible no parents in the house or even he whispered, curious I asked him like why, and he said he never had a GF and he shy, okay I understand. and also he told me his parents are strict and will never allow me (pure Indonesian) as part of family if we even closer more, plus.. They believe the number of never married someone with age gap like 1,3,5 etc. I was glad that I have 10 but the one I remembered he told me shio/Chinese horoscope me and him will always ended up fighting. 

Then why you loved me? Why you even gave me a camera when I need it for my uni? Why did we talking about meeting in Batam? Why why and why? We bound something crazy for just being nothing? Now I might just remembering you because of my bosses accent. Hwaaa... 

It means now, HE MARRIED HIS FIRST GF. GOSH. WHAT I WAS? LOL. 

okay back to the story, 

I remember last time we chatted was in beggining of 2019 right, one of reason I deleted my Line was him. The more he texted me when he has a GF, the more that time I felt jealous and wanted to cry. I mean, he's not handsome, I was talking to him when I was about 17 and he's 27. It's not called Pd, because we were chatted like only friends years and became more intense after I had my b'day on 10th of July 2016. And since that time we get closer and closer even he wanted to meet me, he wanted a good and romantic time with me after years of knowing but I WASN'T HIS GF.

 I know I must letting someone go, people can go from people you know to people you don't. But still, I was the curious person on this planet and someone who ended up with sad ending. 

I might now just remember him because strong accents of Singlish my boss speak with, I like Singlish, it's cute and understandable because it's more like the way we talk everyday in Indonesia like.. 

"Looking eyes" Means "tatap mata" / Look at me. Day by day I remember him just because the strong accents that my boss now telling me. Today, 12 Sept 2025, I cried during my free time and only me in the room, while I ate my lunch, I cried. Like.. 

 I do regret to let him go but, I must understand people not supposed to be something. And people can go. 

I've seen him with the wedding photos, with a girl he chose. In the end I was just his past he will erase, but he will forever remember what we had. I've heard many of guys still remember someone in his last after married another girl. 

But me? I AM NOT A GUY AND I AM NOT MARRIED YET. hahaha. Plus I think I'll forget when I have kid(s) already with actual husband and keep myself busy with housework. Not with Jay. 

Jay could be my past but these days I remember him because things like the everyday Singlish plus Singaporeans reader even my blog hasn't develop yet. 

Lot of things lah.. 

And if I could write down my feeling I would def telling him

"Happy ending for you" I am not jealous anymore, I let you go.. 

And dear Singaporeans, if my story not as good as happy ending. I am sorry, I must letting him go as my choice as I deleted my Line. Because he kept talking to me while he has a GF.

What about another apps? didn't he follows you in any? 

Yes, he followed me on Instagram before but he unfollowed me first, after showing he has a GF. Plus when I deleted my Line. Maybe he thought I block him. He realized in the day I deleted Line, he appeared on my story (2019 I very often to post stories). After that I think it's right time to unfollowed him and changed my Instagram name from "Yamadella" To "BrightJeremiah98". He could be hard to find me (?) Because I never messaging him on Instagram. Maybe No path he could get. Since I didn't tell him my FB and others. Only Line and following each other on Instagram. 

Ah.. Okay then. That's the story I want to tell relate to Singapore and Singaporean guy. 

Btw.. My Chinese zodiac is Tiger. Guess how old I am now.. :)  

Plus if you willing to date and match me, I've telling you.. I'm a wild Tiger 🐯